i'm currently listening to pinkpantheress' new album while typing this out! wow it's really like clockwork - i drift back to cygnet every month or so and it seems like so much has happened since the last time i was here. the wheel of time never stops for anyone... but isn't that the joy of it all? i've been trying so hard over the years to preserve memories and etch every little detail of my life into my brain or some form of physical/digital media, but i've realised recently that it's ultimately futile. my measly 256gb iphone storage aside, i don't think it's possible to keep everything, let alone remember it. i think i'm trying to be okay with that! even at this point in time, i'm sure i've forgotten many of my happiest childhood memories, and while that kind of scares me, it is a fact . And one that i have to be okay with. i guess it really circles back to just enjoying the moment and feeling joy in the moment :thumbsup
sorry that was a bit of a tangent umm back to pinkpantheress' album (fancy that)!!! i am really enjoying this gosh my fav track is romeo andthe rest are gorgeous too of course i love tonight and illegal :3 i've been a pinkpantheress fan since day 1 believe Me when i say i was there from the start okay i was there before any of her songs hit 500k... my fav album from her so far is heaven knows and it's so hard to choose my favourite tracks but i had a recent obsession with feel complete (also from heaven knows). i've kinda retired from stan culture so i don't really know what goes on w pinkpantheress outside of her music but i saw some tweets going around about how people thought her actual name was beep ? Help i don't even know...
mother's day recently passed and i feel like this was the least troubling mother's day in recent years. everything went smoothly and i'm super proud of the bouquet i made for my mom! it has lilies (my favourite flower), forget me nots and some miscellaneous greens. the lilies are so so fragrant and the whole house smells like them now it's beautiful. i love buying and arranging flowers i wish i had more opportunities to do that for people. flowers here are so expensive though and recently the florists haven't been bringing in the best selections sigh... i love flower shopping when i'm overseas though their markets are always the best
speaking of going overseas i've been yearning to travel ughhhhh i want to go somewhere with lush greenery and cool weather and big open spaces and walkable cities. i can't travel until december earliest though (i'll be going to canada then!) so i will hold out and dream til then. anyway travelling always feels better when you've pre-romanticised it lol otherwise it just feels tiring. i graduate soon too and i've been thinking of a good graduation gift for myself. i want to treat myself to something really nice to commemorate the occasion. i'll keep thinking about it...
- j